I feel like I'm a person who has an adventurous heart, and an over-analyzing mind. As you may guess, these two parts of me tend to really get in some pretty big fights. I always have the desire to do crazy things, like go sky diving for example, like I really really want to go. Until my friends ask me if I want to go with them next week. That's when my over-analyzing mind jumps in the the ring and starts to take charge. Then I'm all the sudden like, "sitting home in my nice, comfortable home, doing my normal Saturday activities sounds really great." But then my heart takes a shot at my mind and is like "NO! You are breaking all my wildest hopes and dreams!" Seriously, the struggle is that real.
So the latest brawl that has been going on in my head is about whether or not my husband and I should go on a study abroad together in May. Everyone is always quick to say YES OF COURSE! and honestly, that's what I said too when my husband brought it up. But then it got more realistic, and my mind started punching back. "It could be hard," it jabbed, "it's so expensive," it kicked, "THAT'S A DOWN PAYMENT ON A HOUSE," it roundhouse kicked my heart in the face (what? Yeah I don't know either). So what do I do? Well I don't really know. But one of my biggest fears is that my mind will get the best of me and keep me from doing all the fun things in the world. I hope that just knowing that that is how I work, will help me to remember NOT to let that happen.
I know it might seem like a burden to try and figure out something like this, but I can't tell you the benefits you can get from a study abroad. It's hard, definitely, but it's also one of the most amazing things you'll ever do. Sometimes the best things in life are those that are outside our comfort zone! It is something that you'll never forget, and the memories you make, are way worth the price! I hope you do it, because I honestly think I'm a different person because of mine. I know, it's cliche, but it's true!
ReplyDeleteI feel like I'm the same way! I sometimes have all these crazy ideas to go and do things I've never done before. Then before i decide to go and actually do them, I back out. I think sometimes I go through with them, but the biggest key in actually doing them is to 1) do it with someone who has done it before and 2) do it with people who are willing to take the same risk as well. I think that if it's not bad, then usually it's ok to do! Thanks for the post
ReplyDeleteMaking big decisions like that is a very hard thing. Especially when it affects you AND your husband. I always wished that I went to do a study abroad before I got married because it's so much easier to decide to do that when it only affects you. I hope that you make the right decision. Pray about it! That always helps. It will help guide your heart and your mind.
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