Transitions

Transitions are hard. That is what has been on my mind lately. And maybe this is not so for many other people, but it sure is for. Sometimes I find myself subconsciously trying to hide inside myself and completely shutting down at these points. The transition from school to going out into a big, scary world has been especially hard for me. Is it not scary?!

For 18 years of my life, I have been going to school. And I've always known that's what I needed to be doing. At the end of each school year, I always have known that in 3 months from then, I was going to be going back to school again. However, and fortunately, that is not so after April, because I am graduating. So now what? I guess I'm supposed to go out and get a big kid job, which honestly scares the heck out of me. My husband has been so great and trying to help me find a job. But every time I find myself, shutting down to all of his ideas. Because I am scared. Because I feel under qualified. Because it is change. But that is life.

I know what I would be telling someone else to be confident, that they can do it, that they are the best. And for some reason I can't accept that own advice for myself. But I know I need to. If I beleive that I am confident and qualified and the best, then others will too! So that is my new goal, to believe in myself.